painting + trip

5/7/25

I was drawing a painting of two men in a dense forest. It is still mysterious what they were doing there but one posed that he was tied to a tree and the other was on that rope. The question is whether the free man was trying to tie him up or free him. I was first working on the sketch which looked very detailed with pencil.
'oh damn, my skills in drawing has improved damn.'
The painting changed itself and now the two men are carved into the tree one of them was tied to, while a skeleton of a deer lay in front of it. The forest was a little more open now.
'oh... okay this is also interesting yeah...' I said to myself.
Before I could add anything more it transformed to a very open forest with only a few trees. The ground was muddy and you could see ruts. It had been raining and the sun was shining from behind onto the trees. The tree stump that the two men carved on was still there but a little more faintly.
'ah this is more like it.'
And then it changed to the final image in which it looked a little more vivid.
The sun was still shining and more leaves started growing on the branches. There is a nice green lawn in the middle of the painting with a two-wheeled cart that carried chairs, a mini piano and a computer.
To the left of the painting in the back there is a white spotted dog with long black ears wearing a hat walking his cat. Behind him is a forest and next to him is the stump with the carved men.
More in the middle there is a blonde peasant woman in a beautiful natural plant bow holding two things. In her right hand a hay stick and her left hand a dead chicken. In the background is her farmhouse. To her left there is a forest and a path leading somewhere. But in front of that forest there is another fully carved man from a tree riding a bicycle, with flowers growing on and around him.
'hmm there is still something missing. It needs to be a little more surreal. ooo a red goose would do it.'
Big red geese came strolling in the background. 'maybe there should be another really big goose closer up for more detail.'
I was going to draw it (I was apparently drawing it digitally afterwards) but then I got a message on my computer that I was able to visit my airbnb in italy. The host was a very nice man who worked for a car company. He had a wife and two children who were the same age as me. They lived above the airbnb because it was one house.
I was on my way right away. When I got there I was too early so I couldn't get into that house yet. I grabbed a desk chair with wheels that was somewhere on the sidewalk against the bushes and drove down the street from where the airbnb is. I saw the host walking out of his business and further on I saw his wife driving a car with her daughter and son in the back. They were just coming around a corner exactly where I needed to cross, but they just stopped at the crosswalk to get out
So I drove past them and they looked at me oddly. They didn't know what I looked like yet so my reputation was still safe.

I soon got about downtown Rome and saw that they lived in one of the most beautiful neighbourhoods ever. The architecture could not be surpassed. There were huge trees and the sun was shining right on a very beautiful statue in the middle of a mini park between the houses.
I looked at one of the streets and saw that you could choose between two streets: one where it was already night where another beautiful statue stood and the other where a beautiful cathedral stood in daylight. The cathedral seemed beautiful to me so I walked there but then at that moment there was a creep who asked me to take a picture with him so I ran the other way back to my airbnb. Suddenly it became night and other people were eating outside next to the park. Unfortunately I couldn't run fast again and then at that moment two random girls came dancing towards me from behind.

Then I woke up in my own bed. Still in my dream.
Mom called me to come downstairs to eat while my brother started to shower in the bathroom.
Downstairs there were small water spurts from the ceiling and it slowly became more, while my mom was making pasta. 'It should be fixed soon.' my mother said.
I grabbed a pan and put it under the biggest jet of water. At that moment my mother started to have some kind of seizure at the sink.
'Are you okay?' I asked.
she stopped turned around and put a hand on my shoulder. Her eyes were still rolling in a creepy and weird way.
'yeah, everything's fine.'
And then she was fine again.

Then I woke up from the dream. But my mother was still calling me to go eat. It was lasagna and it was placed at the exact place near the sink in my dream. My brother was gone so he also could not eat dinner with us.

onmyway

5/5/25

I was skydiving in the air with other people and i felt pretty calm because i knew everything was going to be alright. We flew around doing tricks and then we landed safe on the ground. Then there was this time leap a few hours into the future and i was walking with other people trying to find our van. Unfortunately it was gone and other people around didn't seem to know where it was either. 'But guys, there's this party though we should go there.'
'therefore we need our van Sam.' someone else said.
'I mean, it's not that far away, you can literally bike to it.' i said.
'Wait, yeah you're right.'
We cycled together on hills and over bridges with amazing views. While the sun was setting we cycled down a hill where there were houses on the side.
Someone shouted my name and then I saw an old friend of mine waving at me from one of those houses. I waved and shouted hello back. Suddenly everyone was wearing swimming clothes and at that moment I also realized that I had not brought my swimming clothes. 'oh guys, I forgot something but go on cycling I'll see you there.' I turned around and saw a slim man wearing a bikini holding a towel, leaning against a balcony of a house. He was as big as that house and was talking to someone. I was on my way to grab my swimming clothes from my mom's car.

the parents

I don’t know how it began but i was suddenly at my own house that got changed into something fancy and bigger. I wanted to work on homework with a classmate and my mom said she wanted me to work on it at home because we need to celebrate the renovation. The only part that was renovated was the living room and it was super empty. Blue coloured floor, brown beams on the ceiling, white walls with 4 windows in total. There was a dining table at the window and the couch was in the middle of the room. There was a table with food and snacks to celebrate. I had to read the last two chapters of lord of the rings with my classmate but we skipped it and ate some snacks at the dining table. There were even blunts on a small plate. More people were sitting at the table: ’ Yeah im seeing so many ppl having weed vapes’
‘Yeah me too man its normal i saw a guy getting one out of his pocket and smoked some in 2 seconds.’
I was checking the snack table and then i realised this wasn’t my house. It was someone else’s. ‘Yeah don’t mind to get more candy if y’all want!’ Said someone else’s dad.
Then everyone had to go, but they said they were coming back soon. I didn’t go so i was left with the parents.
Idk what we talked about but eventually we went to:
‘Oh how many times do y’all cry in a week with family?
‘Guess’
‘Uh every day?’
‘Ehh close’
‘4 times’
‘Yep’
‘Nice. Well i think i need to go to the market soon. I wanna see my friend have a fashion show so-.’
‘Oh no please stay, uh we can play this game our family plays all the time.’
It was snowing outside and we sat in front of the building.
It looked like an old university but it was a house complex with multiple apartments. On the other side of the road there was a hill with a weird looking deformed mountain where there were houses in front of it.
‘So this game we’re always playing is this one.’ The dad explained.
Game symbols popped up and he suddenly had a sword. He started to fight me very slowly as a demonstration. I was hitting and blocking the sword away with my hands and saw symbols popping up that i couldn’t read.
‘But this is pretty hard how are u able to be protected well?’
‘Therefore we got this armour.’ And he showed me some armour that you’re only supposed to wear on the forearms, shoulders, legs and around the waist like a corset with a sick long blue skirt attached to it. ‘Yeah this is what we always do. We don’t have to play it right now we can just sit here.’ So we sat in the snow with our backs against the buildings stone wall. I was sitting next to the mom while the dad was sitting in front of me with his back turned towards me. The ground started to go up and down like a wave. A man from afar with a black hat was standing right in front of the dad where the dads bald head was fitting into that mans face perfectly from my point of view. Like one of René Magritte’s paintings where the green apple fits into a mans face. Then a car drove by past the man and he vanished while that car was about to park in front of us. An old woman stepped out wearing multiple long purple cloaks around her.
‘Oh hey thats the fashionista, she’s here.’
‘Who?’
‘She takes care of your friend, who gives a fashion show soon.’
‘My friend is here?’
‘She was here the entire time.’
Another old woman stepped out and a random little girl ran out the door of the building and started helping them. They all fell on the ground and the two women got mad.
‘Stand up and walk away will ya!!’ One said to the little girl.
‘She was a former military have some respect!’ The other said.
The parents let them inside while i stayed out.

shifting places

I was living in New York with my family sharing a bathroom with our neighbors but the bathroom had multiple showers and stuff and each claimed their own part of the bathroom. My mom said to me i had to say to the other neighbor that this certain shower was theirs or something? then we went outside and we're trying to look for the empire state building. the city was huge man (i never went to new york my entire life before). But then i was suddenly cycling on a tandem back home in europe. I was cycling with 2 other people listening to punk music. We were driving around my street around a little grass field. The bike was slippery because there was alot of water on it. Then we parked it and suddenly we were somewhere underneath a bridge and the bike turned into a van. We went to a swimming pool where there was also a huge gymnasium. I was with another friend (a random person in this dream) and we were dressing up to swim in the changing room but it was her birthday so she had to go to her family really quick. idk why but the gymnasium was downstairs and you could see everything from the changing room. people who were standing in the gymnasium could see the people who were in the changing room from downstairs which was weird. I saw a man staring up at our room casually as i looked down with my towel around me.

fleeing

4/21/25

I was hanging out with people that were my friends in this dream. We hungout in my room and suddenly someone had a grenade in their hand. 'Let's play this game.' Everyone was excited and started blowing parts of themselves up. Even someone's ass exploded like the jar guy. Blood splashed everywhere and i was very confused and scared. Everyone didn't die somehow but i still fled out of my room. Some stranger was fleeing out of my house too. My house looked like an abandoned factory but as i went out it was a small home. We shared front yards with the neighbors. just plain stones on the ground with no plants.
I was walking for a while and got to the bay where a ship was about to sail to California. I hopped on and someone was talking to mongolians who owned the ship. They were making jokes about america how fucked the system is. We couldn't sail yet because that person who was talking with the mongolians had to go to the toilet. But the toilet was outside at a museum. I joined her to go there. As we got there the museum was in the middle of a huge ravine on a mountain surrounded by other mountains. We had to jump on a random person to jump to the toilet stal. Yes, it's their job to throw the people to the museum as well. The shittiest part is that there was no edge attached to the building to walk on so you had to grab on the holes in the walls or the window frames going boulder style to climb to the entrance. I failed multiple times to jump but eventually i was able to grab the window frames. Unfortunately the entrance was gone and i had to climb through the window. I was hesitant first because i saw her suddenly joining a museum guide and he was busy talking, so i didn't wanted to disturb them. Eventually i went in and apparently people drew me in different surrealistic ways. One gave me a long neck in the woods, the other one drew a butterfly surrounded by strawberries with my face in the corner as a giraffe. I forgot the rest which is a bummer. The guide started to play around with a flute that a surrealistic artist made but he fucked around too much with it to the point the staff had to calm him down because he was getting too passionate with it. I mean he almost broke the flute while running around with it.

bus drive

Idk what i was doing first but after that i was about to go home.
I was at an intersection trying to cross. There were cool mushrooms growing next to the road hanging above it and also furthur away like trees. Then a huge bus came by and stopped when there was traffic jam. Some friends were in that bus and i heard them saying hi to me and then i heard them murmur to eachother: 'yo should we ask if she could join us?', 'Yeah man',
'Yooo do u wanna join us??'
I was like'suree' and i entered the bus and i started smoking weed with them and drawing the view.
After a while we were somewhere else and then I realized it was fucking 1 am and busses dont go anymore at 1 am to go back home so i had to stay with them at the hotel. Turns out we were all the way at the border of Belgium at a lake. There was a mountain called 'Unspoken' or somethin. We drove by a tornado that waited for us to pass by and then went on. Then i looked at some cool abandoned houses and then ian said: 'yo thats where my mom likes to live in, in that architecture.'

We were at the hotel. I went to the toilet and suddenly a woman appeared: 'the borders of every country is no ones land. Especially when theres a river or some weird other huge area where u have to cross over.' she said.
I had to know which busses went back as soon as possible so i searched it up and apparently you need a code to find out so i grabbed my old science book with answers and i finally got it. There was a bus that went at 1 pm.
After a while it was already almost 1pm so i went for a walk to the busstation. I was making pictures on the way of colored fences at an allotment. And i took a picture of a random tweaker who was with his dog. He was fighting the dog but then he calmed down. I accidentally deleted the best pic T^T, that felt devastating.

I was sitting in the bus and suddenly these flashes of two guys came in my head as i was staring at the view. They were both raised in a weird house and apparently this area was back in the day a military area. They had to build everything themselves when they were teens, even putting windows in their own home. There were lots of jets flying and you would hear a few explosions in the distance for practice.
Now this town is just cracky abandoned but nice and quiet.

random adventure

I was home and my bf tattoed animations on his arm in my bathroom. And he bought a new shirt. When i looked at it there were two pictures on both sides so i turned them around constantly and they both changed. I thought i was hallucinating so i thought i could use these for creative perposes. They looked like metalshirts with their albums and stuff.

My neighbor Dwight and his wife got killed by other ppl because of sometbing bad they did. It was on tv. They got roasted half naked on a stick and tied up with blue ropes. Ppl made cuts in their arms, legs and stomach to put chickenflesh in it and were sticking chicken feathers onto them. Dwight said: 'omygod no way this is happening! Ive always dreamed to get sacrificed like this!'

I went upstairs to the attic to talk to mom what she was doing and she found my old chilhood toys. I could see the skyline of the cool city from our window and it looked either like Berlin, Paris or Milan.
My mom then looked out the window and saw that the neighbors bought a leopard again: 'ohno not again. the neighbors baught a new panther!'she said.
I saw the leopard trying to get over our fence, so she went to the neighbors. They lived in cool shack looking houses and they looked and behaved like characters from Gummo. There was a grandma, another woman and two daughters and one boy. My mom was mad and then they got the leapord away from us.

I decided to hangout with my friends and we went on a long adventure. Like, really long.
We went by train and bus to different cities. On the way i read about a story from a japanese writer called 'Hakazuki'. The story was about a girl who had an aranged marriage. But she didnt wanted to marry so she had to cut off something in her ears so that she couldnt hear anymore. Her father had such a huge castle. It looked a bit mixed with spanish/arabic and indian royal architecture.
When she was about to marry the families arrived together, but the group was so small they only used 3 big tables and people were constantly changing tables to talk to other people because it became awkward. She married eventually. Idk what the climax of the entire story was after, unfortunately.
The bus shook me out of the daydreaming/reading and my friends said: 'yo we got to get outta here.' And then they looked at the map and we went into an alley and suddenly we were in egypt?.
Everything was kinda sandy and there were cool old buildings. I saw huge cats walking around that you would see on egyptian heroglyphs. Me and someone else were walking a different direction and walked inside an arena on accident. Prisoners were imprisoned on the side while people were sitting above them. A few participants were already in the arena with other ppl walking around with bowls of money in their hands that people would throw their money in. I saw a skinny old man put a bowl upside down on a participent to show that they're going to participate. We went out of there quickly because one other person tried to get us to participate.

We went to a place were everyone was high and we were trying to find out friends. They were there. There were multiple rooms inside of minihills and ppl were sitting around taking drugs or smoking weed. There were 'existentialism room', 'safety room', 'food room', 'drink room', 'sleep room'. And i went into a room that got some sort of philosophical name to it but when i got in i saw artwork of dicks and the temp. was super hot in it. There was also an old video of people performing an orgy and they got some sort of silvery body paint on them. I got out of there and then i had a random conversation with some people.